We have moved from Newport to Ashdown again. I went out and found a job at Little River Nursing and Rehab in August. We were staying with a friend of mine and then she moved more people in and we left. We stayed a month at different hotels while the house that was my grandparents became emptied.

I have five children that I adore and love completely. My ex husband who is a registered sex offender told a judge with the help of a DHS worker that I was abusive to my children and very angry. I have been angry but who would not be when a sex offender is given custody of kids he had no interest in during the marriage. Now I am not allowed to see them unless I pay a counselor they see to see them for an hour and have to drive five hours to get there. It seems when I was attempting to get things going to get a lawyer something would happen when they talked with the Ad Litem who was all for him and his wife. My kids are calling her mom and he would get pissed if they called Mike dad so I made sure they didn't but it doesn't seem that they are doing the same when it comes to my feelings.

We finally moved into my grandparents house in October. I worked at LRNR for 9 months then one day after being told by administator that the DON would take some time off due to the way she went off on me during supper time in front of CNA and family members I was the one told I had to take time off. Then a week later they fired me. I have dealt with being friendly to all these people and yet I walk into work one day to an aide telling me a note was left out that stated I brag about geting meth with my check. I was floored. I left it for the administator to deal with and yet it was swept under the rug. I am toren by what to do now. They are not wanting to provide documentation to DHS or Social Secruity that is needed to help us and it pisses me off. I worked lots of extra shifts and came in on days off. I announced a month ago that I was prengnat and told the ADON and DON when I was told that I would need to provide documentation that I could work. I made a copy of it before I gave it. I am waiting on my unemployment to come through.

When we first got here Mike went to work but when we had to go to motels in Texarkana he was not able to get a ride to Nashville so he had to quit. Now that we got the house figured out he has not been able to get on anywhere. It is frustrating to no end. At this time until things look up we are not able to attend church due to reduced funds for gas. The boys have to go to therapy once or twice a week so that makes it hard as well and we are having to conserve diapers so the boys are wearing the older boys underwear during the day uneless we have to go somewhere or they are napping or going to bed.

I am going to try and  keep this up so we should see if this works.